Old Advice, Yet Still Good Advice

Remember this post?  I realized that I've needed the advice Lori gave me more now than ever.  So I'm reusing it again to remind mostly me but also the few of my readers that life is good.  You may not be where you want to be in life, but that's okay keep growing and love yourself through it all.  In the end you need to be your own cheerleader, because nobody is harder on you than you.  LOVE YOURSELF and good things will come.

"Love yourself, be proud of yourself, and be very gentle with yourself. If you love who you are, then you will be able to accomplish all your dreams.  Have no judgement with who you are or where you are at in your life.  Just be proud and gentle and loving towards yourself"

Falling in love at the playground

This is such a cute music video by the black keys.  I just love the little boy (the one with out glasses) but somehow I always end up in his position haha its great to have someone to relate to. (Warning: This video contains two middle finger waves...consider yourself warned!)

Proud to be Particular!

I suppose I'm actually extremely particular when it comes to pretty much everything in my life.  From the food I eat and the boys I date I obsess over every minute detail.  So I guess its no wonder that I haven't found any guy I enjoy having around for too long.  Don't get me wrong I have met a lot of sweet boys, but I haven't met "the" sweet boy that just clicks and fits in with  all my oddities and interests.

For Example

I'm looking for a boy who owns more bow ties more than neck ties.  

I'm looking for another proud four eyes who doesn't enjoy touching their eyeballs with contacts (like me!)

I'm looking for someone who I can talk about Harry Potter with for hours and not get annoyed with me!

I'm looking for someone who isn't annoyed when I bring my coloring books to church

I'm hoping for someone who will go along with my obsession with all things vintage

I'm hoping for someone who will read the same books I like just so we have something in common

I'm hoping for someone who likes bananas in the cheerios and peanut butter on ginger snaps.

I'm looking for someone who will stay up late watching open heart surgery on youtube and enjoy it.

I'm dreaming of someone who will go on my dream East Coast graduate school adventure with me. 

I'm crossing my fingers for someone who won't mind eating spaghetti 

15 times a week cause that's all I can make.

I'm waiting for someone who likes to make picnics and sculpt rice crispy treats on a

Friday night instead of going to a movie. 

I'm looking for a boy that will kill all the spiders and smash all the flys.

I'm hoping for a boy who frustratedly explains sport plays to me for the umpteeth time, 

but will still pick me first to come the game!

I'm hoping for someone to write love letters to and not love texts, 

because handwriting is so much more personal!

I'm praying for the boy that keeps his life in line with God and will bless our future home.

I'm hoping for the boy that will talk about which element is the most bad-a with me... and not be afraid to disagree when I say Cesium every time just because it explodes when it hits water.

I'm hoping for someone who can help me calm down when life gets rough and I'm freaking out because its true I do freak out....A LOT!

I'm hoping for someone to create my own Hollywood love story with 

(so I can stop dreaming about my favorites)

So if you've stuck with my post this long and read through my examples (sorry like I said I'm particular!) I'm sure you're thinking that boy does not exist! And if he does he's possibly gay or European as Elle Woods would say.  But those are just some of the many things that I am keeping an eye out for and really I don't plan on giving in for anything less...well I suppose I could live with a few minor edits, additions, and changes! But the point is I know what I do want and that's why I'm going to remain single for a long while.  But in the mean time I've got some big plans stewing up and possibly a mission on the way!  So here's to knowing exactly what you want and being patient enough to find it!

P.S. I changed somethings up and have decided to go with a simple yet elegant all white background if anything hard to read (as far as the new format, not my lack of spell check) please let me know! =] Thanks
-Bee

Forget you Aladdin, I'm running off with the GENIE

If you're anything like me you dread when you see a long time friend and they ask you whats new in your life, who are you dating, and how are things going?
Honestly, I wish that I could validate white lying because I sure wish I could say:
OH I'm doing so awesome, I love my singles ward, and I met my really beautiful boyfriend Trevor there he's pre-med and I'm pre-pharm so we make a perfect couple.  I'm just enjoying my summer and loving life.

Instead it usually goes like this:
Oh I'm doing pretty well.  I'm not really dating anyone but I love school and I'm really focused on that right now.  I'm majoring in Chemistry and browsing possible grad school options...but for the summer I'm filling my time with lots of fun "STUFF" and working about as much as I can...(here stuff means exercising, WII tennis I want to be at pro level by the end of the summer, and catching up on GREYS, PSYCH, and my new show BODY OF PROOF).  I really despise this answer but for now its the best I can do.  The things I leave out are as follows
1. I haven't yet tried my singles ward (maybe today is the day).
2. I haven't been on a date in months and I'm not exactly the kind of person who can easily become acquainted with another SO PLEASE DON'T ASK ME THAT QUESTION UNTIL 10 YEARS PASS
3. All the guys I've dated in the past 4.5 years I wouldn't marry so there are 0 prospects.  Once again refer to request in part 2.
4.  In a weird way I'm done with summer and I'd rather be at it at school again getting closer to my goal and not letting my focus waver.  School is tough but I had a good system down, now I have to start all over and break my bad habits like staying up way too late.
5. I'm BORED and work isn't enough to keep my brain satisfied.

Why am I freaking out again....well I think it all boils down to yesterday. I was a dateless Saturday, and I was babysitting at Tosha's house.  She has 3 beautiful kids who I adore, an amazing house, and thick amazing hair.  I know its weird to covet hair but if I could get those locks I might die from an unsafe attractiveness in hair level compared to the rest of my unattractiveness or I might die from happiness; its still a little unclear.  Anyways she just barely turned 30 and so there is about a 10.5 year gap between us.  Here I was watching her kids and thinking in 10 years this might really be my reality... THE KIDS, very possibly the house, but I don't think great hair is ever in my near future.  I was so scared thinking about having my own kiddos that to cope I looked up grad programs with a long 8 year commitment.  I guess I just don't know what I want yet and I am trying to keep all the windows open but the truth is I'm sick of waiting for Prince Charming for my future to start. So here I am sleepless at 12:38 in the morning wonder what do the next 10 years hold...will I be fresh out grad school, unwed and broke or a desperate housewife with 3+ kids and a minivan, where is that stupid genie with my 3 wishes or at the very least can I glimpse into a crystal ball? PLEASE?  I'm dying here!

The best dating advice

I've been reading the book the last lecture and I wanted to share what he wanted his little girl to know with you, because honestly it really is the best dating advice I've heard in a while.

"When it comes to men who are romatically interested in you, it's really simple.  Just ignore everything they say and only pay attention to what they do" Randy Pausch

Its simple and self explanatory but I felt like it deserved its own post!

Here are 21 date ideas I came up with in 10 minutes

	Cost less	Cost Some	Cost More
Level of Acquaintance	Free or $	$$$	$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
New Relationship	·         Make sculptures or play Pictionary with  rice crispy treats	·         Open to a random page in the business section in the phone book and visit wherever your finger lands. ·         Make paper boats and race them in a local stream/ditch	·         Make a short claymation movie together ·         Go Geocaching
Know one another somewhat	·         Fly a kite ·         Make a fort/tent in your backyard/park and have a picnic ·         Have an alphabet scavenger hunt at the mall ·         Pick up trash at a park off your neighborhood streets, then make a modern collage out of it.	·         Go to your local grocery store and buy exotic fruit you’ve never eaten before, research how they are eaten, and then have a fruit salad party ·         Get two cameras and then split up.  Take 10-20 zoomed up pictures of objects, then have a contest to see who can guess the objects.	·         Buy a junkie piece of furniture and refinish it ·         Make a quilt ·         Go to a foreign foods restaurant and try something new
Know one another well	·         Go to the library and share your favorite childhood night time stories ·         Visit Costco and collect samples for a free lunch ·         Visit a favorite place from each of your childhoods ·         Sketch your dream house	·         Paint a portrait on a canvas of how you perceive each other ·         Spend the day trying things you’ve never done before ex. (teach your date to whistle, longboard, etc)	·         Hold a mini Olympics for friends with original games you invented (ex. Waste basket basketball)

Waiting on a Call???

If you are anything like me you check your phone triple the amount of times when you are wishing for a cute boy to call.  Up until recently, from the time I came home till the time my head hit the pillow my phone was stashed away in some forgotten place only to be recovered when I need to set an alarm clock for the next day.  BUT NOW, all because some boy said he would call me this week I check my phone about every 3 minutes hoping that by some desperate miracle there would be a missed call/text message.  Well guess what we are on day two of the week count down and there is no such news.  So maybe he won't be calling........or maybe he will.......All I know is that I need to wash this boy right out of my hair and focus again.  

 P.S. I've been thinking if I can get an A in both of my chemistry classes I would go out and buy myself some cool prizes.  This T-Shirt is the apple of my eye at the moment WHAT DO YOU THINK?